Depressed ramble: Learning to love life through Atelier Escha & Logy

(Sorry for yet another depressed ramble, but I really felt like sharing this)

Hey guys and gals, it’s Logy(For the sake of this post’s cohesion call me Alice) here. I’m going to be doing a bit more of a bittersweet(Not sure if that’s the right word to use?) post today…

…In today’s topic I’ll cover an experience that changed my life. Before I get into this post I wanna say, that this is going to get pretty personal, so please keep in mind while reading that this is a extremely personal post to me, I’m sharing an experience that helped define who I am today.

So here it is, without further aideu, here’s the story of how Atelier Escha & Logy helped teach me how to love life, in a time where I had forgotten how to.

Prelude: My life before Atelier Escha & Logy

Life’s a strange thing, huh? it’s filled with more ups and down than an entire amusement park’s rollercoaster selection. Life often is unfair, especially to those who have nothing to begin with…

…My whole life I’ve had a plethora of health conditions that have made it hard to operate in a society that feels like it has no place for me. Here’s a small list of conditions that have plagued my relatively short life thus far

  • Asthma
  • A thyroid condition that makes me gain weight faster than the average person
  • A fatty liver
  • Lots and lots of depression
  • Autism
  • Anxiety
  • Gender dysphoria

the list goes on and on! I think it’s safe to say I haven’t had an easy life, like at all.

So imagine for a minute having all those health issues, and then having to go to highschool for your first time, after all your friends left your hometown. Your all alone for the first time since you were a child, you always had people there to care for you, but now all that’s gone(I’m referring to my friends leaving me behind, for those confused). That was me my freshman year of highschool…

All of this sadness and loneliness would boil up, and I would let it out on the few loved ones I had left. This is the only point in my life where I would’ve considered myself a terrible person.

TL;DR My life was really shitty at the time.

One day though…

…Something would change

What is Escha & Logy?

Atelier Escha & Logy allows players to choose between Two protagonists, The aforementioned Escha or Logy. The main storyline remains the same, but certain events are only available using either Escha or Logy.

Atelier Escha & Logy is a turn based JRPG with a hefty Alchemy system. The Game clocks in at around 35~ish hours to complete the main story.

Story
“This world has seen its fair share of Twilights, and is slowly nearing its end.
Within this world, in the western reaches of the Land of Dusk, there exists a nation that has prospered through its use of alchemy.
In order to survive the inevitable arrival of the Dusk End, the people in that nation devote their every effort to rediscovering the lost alchemic technologies of the past. This story follows two Alchemists slowly unraveling the truth behind the dusk world, while trying to achieve their own ambitions and dreams.”

Cliffnotes VER: My story with Atelier Escha & Logy

This is taken directly from a Reddit post *I* made on R/Atelier, where I talk about my experience with Escha & Logy. The reason I’m sharing this first, is because it provides a good timeline of events, I will be going into more detail about certain events in later paragraphs of this though, so stick around.

“I’m awful with introductions but here it goes!

Hi, I’ve been an Atelier fan for around 2 years now. I thought I would share my story with this franchise since it’s become one of the best things that has happened to me in recent years. No, I’m not exaggerating Atelier has been a blessing in my life these past 2 years.

It all started 2 years ago when I was feeling very suicidal. I was at a phase in my life where I would regularly harm myself, and I had basically no friends to help support me. I was looking for a new series to get into to distract myself from my awful life. I was browsing the PS3 storefront when I saw a game called Atelier Escha & Logy, it had a neat cover, and I was a fan of JRPGS so after looking up a few reviews, I decided to buy it.

I’ll say it now, Escha & Logy saved my life. I know that sounds so cheesy but it’s true. I loved the atmosphere and characters in the game, I also really enjoyed the battle system, so much so that by the time I platinumed the game, it had become my favorite. Escha & Logy gave me an outlet of enjoyment in my horrible life(at the time). I would later watch the Escha & Logy anime, which wasn’t great, but gave me more of what I loved.

When I had the money I purchased Ayesha, which I liked but thought was disappointing overall. I was not deterred so saved up for a vita and bought Shallie Plus(I bought the plus version, because Logy is my literal favorite fictional character, so of course I wanted him in my party). Shallie quickly became one of my other favorite games, I didn’t think it was quite as good as Escha & Logy but still loved the hell out of it! (Also of course I bought Escha & Logy plus eventually, but I don’t have that much to say about it, since it’s basically the same game)

Gradually over the past 2 years I’ve bought all the modern Atelier titles(Arland-Ryza) aside from Nelke. This series has become my all time favorite series in fiction, it saved my life and has been keeping me happy for years now(I really enjoyed the arland & mysterious games). My life isn’t totally better, I still have suicidal tendencies but Atelier has helped me a lot, so that’s why I wanted to share my story with this franchise to you all!

I thought there was no better time to share my story then now, since the dusk games were just re-released. I’ll be buying the dusk trilogy DX later this week ^^

:3C (Also, Logy is the best alchemist, fight me lol”

(Sadly I was only able to afford Shallie, not the whole DX trilogy)

Relating to Logix Ficsario “Logy”

A huge part of this game’s appeal to me at the time I first played it, was how I related to one of the titular characters in the game, Logix Ficsario or Logy. While the puzzle pieces were different, me and Logy were both *metaphorically* going on very similar Journeys of self acceptance and the “search” for happiness.

Before I explain Logy’s backstory, I’m just going to show you all a very underrated intro, don’t worry it relates to Logy’s backstory.

Pretty dope, huh?

Now that you’ve seen this, I’ll explain Logy’s backstory, though I’m pretty sure you can figure a decent portion of it out after seeing that.

Backstory: “Logix is an alchemist from Central City that traveled to the remote town Colseit in order to work for their development team. He heard about the lack of people in Colseit from an acquaintance, and decided to come to the town.

Long before Logy came to Colseit, he used to work as an alchemist developing airships in Central. Happy for being recognized, he worked hard on a new airship engine. However, he felt that his mechanic colleagues didn’t understand his work, lost trust in them, and continued to research on his own without listening to their feedback. After his research failed and caused a great fire accident, he left the city out of guilt for the casualties, one of the people who was gravely injured was a close friend to Logy.”

Logy isolated himself because of paranoia and ended up hurting those he cared about because of his own selfishness. He finds work far away in colseit as a fresh start of sorts.

That relates a lot to me at that time, as most of you can probably guess from my rambling earlier on. I played Escha & Logy to escape a similar situation Logy was in, except instead of fleeing from my home, I fled from reality and buried myself in games, to turn away from the harsh truth of my horrible reality.

But much like Logy a certain fictional character helped me see life a different perspective…

(Link to this amazing fanart here)

…Escha Malier

Escha is the type of fictional character that is overly cheery but in an endearing way rather than an obnoxious one. Escha’s character showed me how important it is to have someone support you, her character really made me value those in my life, like my friends and family. She’s a huge comfort character of mine. Escha’s impact may not be quite as much as Logy’s but it still left quite the lasting impression.

Scattered thoughts

Before I end this post there are just a few more things I want to talk about. Escha & Logy has a wonderful cast of characters, while I may not of had the time to talk about them today you can be damn sure I’ll talk about them in the future.

The ost in Escha & Logy is my go to “relaxing music”, It always calms me down and fills to the brim with joy. The track “The Red Sky” gives me goosebumps every time I hear it, It reminds of the first time I ever played Escha and Logy, and my senses are just flooded with conflicting emotions. Another track that really gets me, is integrated hexagon from Escha and Logy, It’s not actually used in the game but instead used in the promotions for the game, and I’m not gonna lie, the first time I heard this track I cried, It was after I just beat Escha and Logy for the first time, and the song just summarized my feelings on the game so well… It’s really hard for me to explain.

Why Escha & Logy means the world to me!

Have you ever indulged yourself in a piece of media(Whether that be a movie, an album, a video game, a book,etc) and realized that it was a perfect reflection of you. What I mean by that, is a piece of media that vibes with you to a T, Something that you could genuinely say represents you as a person, or at the very least really relatable to you. That’s what Escha & Logy is for me.

Not only did the Escha & Logy help me get through a time in my life where I had nothing to live for, It’s also just phenomenal to me in literally every way, The music, The characters, The art, The gameplay, it’s all just so me. If I were to ever make my dream piece of media it would be very similar to Escha & Logy.

I just love this game so fucking much…

Conclusion

I hope my personal story with this game was entertaining, and I hope it may of even convinced some of you to give this game a try…

…Logy out!

4 thoughts on “Depressed ramble: Learning to love life through Atelier Escha & Logy

  1. Wow. This post…actually made me cry (In a good way). In the current state that I am in right now, where I’m starting to see things in plenty of new perspectives, this was a real wake-up call to me, and as always, this is an Atelier personal post from you, so of course it was going to be good. Can’t wait to see more Alice!

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  2. This post is far and away your best work yet, and you did an excellent job conveying why Escha and Logy is not only your favourite game, but also why it means so much to you and how it literally saved your life.

    Media is an extremely powerful thing in all of our lives, and I think I speak for a lot of people in our group of friends when I say that most of us can relate. We all have a piece of media that either saved our life or changed our perspective on life some what, and for you that has always been Atelier, particularly Escha and Logy.

    Sharing your large list of personal issues and physical and mental health problems must have been really hard for you, and talking about them at length is even harder, but I’m glad you’re able to do so through this platform you’ve created for yourself and I’m glad that this game was able to help you realise that, despite all of these issues, life is still beautiful and worth living.

    One thing I’ve always noticed about you is your connection to the games music. In one of your first ever serious chats with me, I remember you posting a link to music from the game, claiming it calmed you down and made you feel at peace. I’m glad you talked about that here and that it still remains true for you.

    And while I know things are still hard for you, even today, as your best friend I’ll do what I can to be the Escha to your Logy. We all will. Myself and all of your friends.

    Like I said, your best work yet and a really emotionally driven and personal post that hit me hard while reading, despite having never played the game myself (as you know though, it’s on the list!)

    Keep up the good work. You’ve come a long way since your first post and you’re only getting better and better.

    In short, be proud of it Alice. I look forward to whatever’s next.

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